10,000 Reasons

September 11, 2013

The sun comes up, it’s a new day dawning
It’s time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass, and whatever lies before me
Let me be singing when the evening comes

Bless the Lord, O my soul
O my soul
Worship His holy name
Sing like never before
O my soul
I’ll worship Your holy name

You’re rich in love, and You’re slow to anger
Your name is great, and Your heart is kind
For all Your goodness I will keep on singing
Ten thousand reasons for my heart to find

And on that day when my strength is failing
The end draws near and my time has come
Still my soul will sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years and then forevermore

resolutions.

January 3, 2012

as knowledge is commonly the measure of love, my hope this year is that i might know well, and know deeply, those (and He) around me.

how deep and how wide is the love of Christ!

longing.

December 20, 2011

the words of the Prophet Isaiah:

“Everyone who thirsts, come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat!  Come, buy wine and milk without money and without price.  Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your labor for that which does not satisfy?  Hearken diligently to me, and eat what is good… Incline your ear and come to me; hear, that your soul may live…” (55:1-3).

Kingdom living.

November 11, 2011

it’s sad that i don’t write in here as often as i use to… but nor do i have much of a reason to since this blog started as a means to document my life in cambodia. now i’m here in the States. trying to be faithful to the here and now. trying to always be faithful to the here and now. so anyway, i thought i’d share a little bit about a few things i’m learning (less then two months away from my 28th birthday!).

i’ve noticed that my prayers have changed. i use to pray and petition for clarity: in school, at work, with relationships, with love, in ministry. i thought that i needed some sort of sign or divine intervention in order to move and do the Lord’s will. i thought that if i wasn’t certain of God’s will, then i needed to wait for him to make it clear to me. but more often than i like, i find myself waiting in idleness, fearful that i might not be in God’s will, and then being afraid to move at all.

i see now how that perception has slowly changed. i’m starting to think that to be in God’s will is to trust in Him. to trust that God has me exactly where i am and he will take me to where i need to be. i realize that to trust in God is not to walk in the absence of fear – but it is to move in spite of the fear. it’s simple. and it helps me to be faithful in Kingdom living.

so how does this Kingdom living look like for me in the here and now? i realize that my line of work and my passion for people puts me in sketchy situations… but nonetheless, i am grateful for the privilege of entering into people’s lives. i don’t think i have ever felt a greater awareness of the Presence then when i am with someone who is clearly broken. and regardless of whatever fears or insecurities i might have, it is all worth it to just be present… in His Presence.

LORD, you alone are my portion and my cup; you make my lot secure.” – Psalm 16:5

ready for advent.

August 22, 2011

Let All Mortal Flesh Keep Silence

Let all mortal flesh keep silence,
And with fear and trembling stand;
Ponder nothing earthly minded,
For with blessing in His hand,
Christ our God to earth descendeth,
Our full homage to demand.

King of kings, yet born of Mary,
As of old on earth He stood,
Lord of lords, in human vesture,
In the body and the blood;
He will give to all the faithful
His own self for heavenly food.

Rank on rank the host of heaven
Spreads its vanguard on the way,
As the Light of light descendeth
From the realms of endless day,
That the powers of hell may vanish
As the darkness clears away.

At His feet the six winged seraph,
Cherubim with sleepless eye,
Veil their faces to the presence,
As with ceaseless voice they cry:
Alleluia, Alleluia
Alleluia, Lord Most High!

 

i am very much aware of how BORING my last few posts have been lately. though they entail thoughts and grumblings of my heart, still they are so dreadfully dull. i know it’s probably because i’ve been writing to please folks who may be reading this rather than just being the strangeness that is me. i like to go back and reread some of my earlier blogs. they’re so easy to read since all i did was write about life – usually nothing profound nor extraordinary. simply just life.

so, i’d like to share a few pictures from this year on just life as kachen. we’ll start with the beautiful and peaceful Lord’s Land. for my 27th birthday, i went to the Lord’s Land in Albion with my closest girlfriends. we like to call ourselves the “green van girls” because we use to hang out and talk as girls do in my mom’s old green van.

bear cabin where we stayed two nights.

old ladies knitting.

inscriptions on the dinner table.

art.

a little walk in Mendocino.

among friends and Redwoods... God is good.

here is a picture from this year’s Easter service at my home church, Berkeley Covenant.

leanne and the kids during our children's ministry.

afterwards, my family had a lunch/dinner party at my sister Chenda’s. she just bought a new place and most of us hadn’t seen it yet. good times.

mi familia Easter 2011.

coloring Easter eggs with the kiddies.

markers and crayons work just fine. plus, they're fun.

decorating cookies.

the hunt is on!

ava's gotten one!

good thinking looking under the bench mikah! better get that purple one before your cousins get there first! 🙂

yay fabian (1 1/2 yrs)!

inspecting their loot.

me, the life of the party. 🙂

and then for this year’s Khmer New Year (April 14th-16th), my friends and i went down to Long Beach. it’s Khmer Central outside of Cambodia. Cambodian people everywhere! no joke. i have never spent more than a weekend in the LBC, but it totally feels like home. it’s awesome going back this time around and being able to read all the store/shop signs written in Khmer! yay!

anyway, there is this Southeast Asian (mainly Khmer) New Year’s parade and festival in Long Beach every year. this year we skipped both events since we’ve gone to it before. we only cared about one thing: hitting up Khmer restaurants and Khmer dessert shops. Long Beach is THE place for GOOD authentic Khmer foods and desserts outside of the motherland. it’s so worth the 8 hr drive from the bay area just to eat tasty Khmer treats! and seriously, what could be better for a road trip with a bunch of girls if not food and more food? 🙂

pitstop at Huntington Beach: elizabeth, ava, donovan, sophal, dalia, and me.

me and dalia (1 1/2 yrs).

my niece dalia doesn’t like anything “dirty”. she freaked out when i put her feet in the water. 🙂 “dur-ree!!”

with ava (2 yrs) and my sister michelle (18 yrs). ava, always the daredevil, wanted to go bodysurfing! that's my girl!!

my babies playing. yes, we came unprepared.

i’m not sure what else to share nor do i have any more pictures to upload. so that’s it for now folks.

peace be with you!!!

raw.

May 12, 2011

Now there was a famine in the land—besides the previous famine in Abraham’s time—and Isaac went to Abimelek king of the Philistines in Gerar. – Genesis 26:1

Love, what once brought life now feels empty. i can’t seem to find you in anything – whether it’s the beauty of nature, or the sound of the rain, or tending to a child, or spending time with people i love or would love to see them love you – here is my famine: the absence of your Presence. but Issac went through a famine, and so did Abraham. so am i not so strange after all in my own poverty?

The LORD appeared to Isaac and said, “Do not go down to Egypt; live in the land where I tell you to live.  – Genesis 26:2

why can’t i go to Egypt? wouldn’t you more likely be in places of abundance? where your Spirit is moving and your Presence thick? i need you JESUS. i want you. i hungry and thirst for you. Jesus, do you hear me? is this the barren land you will have me live? or can i look for you somewhere else?

Stay in this land for a while, and I will be with you and will bless you. For to you and your descendants I will give all these lands and will confirm the oath I swore to your father Abraham. – Genesis 26:3

stay in this land, in this famine? in this place of uncertainty and doubt? in this loneliness and sadness? Jesus, are you sure? but you swore it with my forefathers. you made an oath with Abraham. you will be with me and you shall bless me. and you know Jesus that the only blessing i desire above all is YOU. and the only desire i have to bless others with is for them to know and see you… so will you make yourself known through me? will others be blessed with the knowledge of YOU if i stay in this land?

I will make your descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and will give them all these lands, and through your offspring all nations on earth will be blessed, because Abraham obeyed me and did everything I required of him, keeping my commands, my decrees and my instructions.” – Genesis 26:4-5

you will multiple your Kingdom if i hold on to your commandments? or will you do so anyway because Abraham obeyed you? so then, am i to just trust in you? trust that you will make yourself known? trust that you will cover the earth with the knowledge of your salvation? you swore it. therefore, you tend to fulfill it. help me to trust.

So Isaac stayed in Gerar. – Genesis 26:6

so to here i stay, because here is where you have me. praise be to God from whom all blessings flow.

the 9th of May.

May 9, 2011

why are you so downcast oh my soul?

chasing tornadoes.

April 9, 2011

a dear friend of mine who i love and feel loved by, has inspired me to write this blog. anna morris, this is for you.

living in the bay. i am so blessed to call this place home. there is such a sweet aroma in being like Christ in this “dark” and broken place. most of my time these days has been in Berkeley since that is where i work right now. but outside of work, i’m here in Oakland. i love Oakland. its closeness to the bay, its unique diversity, its great food, and simply everything about it. i drive through this beloved city and know that this is where i am to be in this season of life. this is where He wants me (for now).

tornadoes. i have dreams about tornadoes. this may be in part due to my obsession of storm chasing and anything that has to do with meteorology (it was a childhood dream of mine to be a meteorologist). but the more i have these dreams, the more i have come to associate these tornadoes to represent something, or Someone.  let me explain a dream i had years ago. i was standing on a hill overlooking Oakland. i could see the rest of the Bay Area in the background. as i am standing there, i saw tornadoes all over the bay – various sizes scattered all over Oakland, San Francisco, and beyond. yet the skies were not dark nor threatening. it was a clear blue day. so these tornadoes, they were just there. they were magnificent and awesome, yet terrifying to behold. then, while i’m still on this hill, a multitude of people, thousands upon thousands, came walking towards my direction. no one was panicking.  i don’t know what they were doing or where they were going. they were simply just walking towards this hill right on pass me. and then i woke up.

any dream interpreters out there? i have a feeling that these tornadoes might represent the Holy Spirit, or perhaps it may represent the church. you know, where the Spirit is moving among his people in the bay? thoughts?

Lent. to take off and put on. during this season of Lent i have been trying to take off the amount of time i spend online and on facebook. i use to spend hours throughout the day wasting brain cells online. it isn’t necessary and definitely is not living in simplicity. it’s not really an impressive fast, but i try. so for putting on, i am trying to read scripture every day. it’s been very helpful in prayer. check this out:

If you return to the LORD, then your fellow Israelites and your children will be shown compassion by their captors and will return to this land, for the LORD your God is gracious and compassionate. He will not turn his face from you if you return to him. – 2 Chronicles 30:9

so… does that mean if i earnestly seek the Lord, he will turn and hear the cries of my loved ones, to those i long to have the knowledge of the Lord? will he reveal himself? will he give them eyes to see and ears to hear? a friend of mine talks about how we can bind the crap that hinders us from seeing and knowing God. Tozer talked about how God is ever present whether we acknowledge it or not and that we must pray that He will make us more aware of his ever-present Presence. He wants to be known… “for i desire mercy, not sacrifice, and the acknowledgement of God rather than burnt offerings.” – Hosea 6:6… and made known… “then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: “HERE AM I!” – Isaiah 58:9. wow. this is good news indeed.

i love the church. i love being the church. i know that i cannot in my own sheer effort practice His Presence and grow in a deeper love for Him without help. and church, you inspire me, encourage me, challenge me, and call me out in my junk. i long for more of Jesus and greater is that desire when we all long for the same. yet even just one person who sincerely wants more of Jesus and loves others deeply because of Jesus, inspires me to long for the same. (anna, i am glad to be the church with you. i love you.)

so i’m betting on the fact that he is in and among people, among those who know him and those who do not know him. right now, i’m searching for him in the Bay. and most likely it will not be the Bay for long since i don’t think that the Lord has put this love in me for Southeast Asians without a purpose. now i just need to find a man who longs and loves accordingly. hehe. 🙂

dance.

February 27, 2011

i waited patiently for the LORD;
He turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
He set my feet on a rock,
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
many will see and fear the LORD
and put their trust in Him. – Psalm 40:1-3

you are doing a good thing in me. you have put a new song in my mouth! though i am poor and needy, you think of me. and you, oh Lord, have not delayed.

the LORD be exalted!